Our ShinShinim

If you would like to send a personal message to any of our previous ShinShinim, their email addresses are listed below.

 

Shinshin	Year	Email
Lior Doron	2013-2014	lior88844@gmail.com
Roi Meshoulam	2013-2014	roimeshoulam@gmail.com
Shoval Rozenberg	2012-2013	shovalrozenberg@gmail.com
Ben Yael	2012-2013	benyael15@gmail.com
Netta Barak	2011-2012	nettabarak@gmail.com
Dan Segev	2011-2012	sgvdan@gmail.com
Sally Joseph	2010-2011	sally_j@walla.com
Shalev Fried	2010-2011	shalevfried@gmail.com
Tal Grinbaum	2008-2009	tal.grinbaum@gmail.com
Eran Shpigelman	2008-2009	eran_shp@walla.co.il

Letter from Netta Barak

My Dear Canadians,

I guess that you have heard at some of the news. Since Tzuk Eitan (in English it will probably be Steady Cliff) Operation started, I was wondering what it looks like from Toronto. I got many the worried and supporting messages that made me understand that I must take my rusty English out of my I-never-use-it drawer in my head and write.

That’s a good start. But what should I write about? About the facts? About what’s right and what’s wrong? About what’s frightening me on these days? About the soldiers who got injured or killed? About the atmosphere in Israel now?

I’ll start by saying that I’m safe. I still serve in the intelligence, and I’m now preparing to become a commander in the same course that I did when I just joined the army. So safe and useless that it sometimes drives me insane. I wish could do something helpful. And for the worried Jewish moms among you, my family is also safe -- my dad or my older brothers weren’t called for reserve duty, yet.

I’m not afraid of the rockets. Many places, including the apartment in which we live, have bomb shelters. There is also the very efficient Iron Dome that I probably don’t need to explain. There are alarms, which usually catch you in the middle of something -- in the shower, during Shabbat dinner, on the highway, sleeping or just in the middle of a sentence. It’s not fun, but it’s ok. What worries me is when I think about my little brothers who are four, seven and nine years old. I wonder why they have to hear the alarms, go to a bomb shelter or crouch in the ditch on the side of the highway.

I’m afraid that it will hit closer and closer. Some of the soldiers who got killed in Gaza are friends of friends. And a close family friend of ours, a deputy battalion commander in the paratroopers, is now hospitalized in Be’er Sheva with severe head injuries. More than 40 soldiers were killed in this operation, and I’m afraid the numbers will keep on growing.

I’m afraid of the hatred, between Jews and Arabs, and within Israeli society. In the last few weeks there were some demonstrations of right-wing groups against left-wing groups, and people are posting or saying things that shouldn’t be said. In times like these, we must be strong and united, not judge people for their opinions and not act violently towards anyone, no matter who he is or what he believes.

I’m also optimistic and proud. I’m proud to see so many people I know working days and nights to keep us safe, fighting, training the fighters, providing the intelligence needed to hit Hamas efficiently, while trying not to hurt innocent people in Gaza and keep our soldiers safe. I’m extremely proud to see so many civilians across the country doing everything they can to show that Am Israel Chai. I see people collecting food, snacks and other useful things to send in packages to the soldiers at the battlefront, coming to the funerals and Shivas of the lone soldiers whose friends and families live abroad, and just supporting one another, because we all need someone to lean on these days.

And there is one more thing that makes me proud and optimistic: seeing all the support and concern of so many people around the world and especially the Jewish community in Toronto. It makes me feel that we’re not alone, and that there is hope that maybe one day my little brothers will not hear alarms, my friends won’t be at the battlefront, and I’ll have to write about my boring peaceful life in Israel.

Here are some thoughts from me to you. Thank you for reading.

I wish you all shavua tov (a good week for those who didn't listen in Hebrew school) and hope for one here too.

Netta

Letter from Rabbi Nir Barkin

An unbelievably surreal situation . . .

Shabbat. Anat and I are relaxing in lounge chairs in the small backyard of our home We call it the "Nachlaot garden" – as the foliage that we've cultivated for the last dozen years well as the wood and pine and Jerusalem shutters give it the feel of that Jerusalem neighborhood known for its old-style housing and hidden courtyards. As a former Jerusalemite, it was important to me to imprint something of the flavor of my Jerusalem Kimchi family home - which had been in Nachlaot since the mid-19^th century.

Omri, our middle child, 19 years and two months old, a "mommy's and daddy's boy" – or at least that's how we viewed him until yesterday or the day before.

Omri – who just yesterday would finger his "smichi" – an old work shirt of mine – trailing it behind him like a cape pretending to be Popeye's son Swee'Ppea.

Omri – a house "kitten" who overnight has become a panther.

Omri is a combat soldier in one of Israel's elite units and is fighting on the front in Gaza. We haven't heard from him in six days and the worry and anxiety are eating away at our souls. For most of the day, we manage to avoid the nightmares, but the nights . . . the nights. But I'll return to the nights later.

The weekend newspapers lay strewn around us in piles, as in homes everywhere – here in Israel and abroad. This weekend everything – the news items, endless interpretations, assessments, speculations of "what if" and "maybe", opinion columns and feature articles – deals with Operation Protective Edge (Tzuk Eitan) which began 19 days ago and shows no signs of ending.

I think to myself "I don’t see any light at the end of the tunnel". I don't share my thoughts with Anat who is trying to pass these difficult and suspenseful hours by flipping back and forth between TV news channels and internet sites. She has created a Whatsapp group for the parents of Omri's unit – a collective therapy support group of parents equally as helpless as we are.

The exposure of the threatening Hamas tunnels, the discovery of huge stores of ammunition directed at Israeli settlements as well as the continued firing of rockets at Israeli targets all leave me with the feeling that this is a just and unavoidable war – even given all the evil and horror that war general – and this one in particular – brings.

I choke when I hear the phrases "A war for our home" and "An unavoidable war" – not because I have the slightest doubt that these statements are true, but because this is the first war in which Anat and I are parents of a combat soldier at the front.

During the Six-Day War I was eight months old. From that war, my father returned injured to the Ezrat Nashim hospital in Givat Shaul . . . and later, my parents separated. During the War of Attrition in the late sixties and early seventies, we were already living in the North – and we were constantly bombarded with Katyusha attacks as were the rest of the Northern communities. Terrorists from Lebanon attacked the towns around us: Shamir, Misgav Am, Kiryat Shemona, Ma'alot and more. The face of evil that I saw as a young child shook the peace and basic fortitude that every child needs to grow. The Yom Kippur war forced us – second-graders on Neot Mordechai – to spend weeks in a dank, dark bomb shelter – sleeping on basic wood plank beds surrounded by the smell of the chemical toilets. Our horror was exacerbated when we left the shelter to learn of the deaths of three beloved Kibbutz members: Haim, Shimson and Ilan.

In 1982, I was in the eleventh grade when I found in my brother's closet - my brother who fought as a paratrooper in the first Lebanon War – the envelope of the farewell note that he left us "To Be Opened if I Don't Return". Happily, that envelope was never opened. And yet, once again, I repressed my feelings and put up yet another defensive wall in my inner bunker in order to survive.

And then there were more terrorist attacks and the Intifadas. And more military operations whose names I've repressed.

We have been fighting daily for our very survival for more years than we have had a State. A war for our home. An unavoidable war. Truly there is no other option. Those who study history know this to be true. A hand extended in peace (and mine is extended despite everything) is no substitute for a watchful eye and eternal caution. Any peaceful solution or resolution will be greeted by me with wary caution. I am suspicious of international friendships – not surprising given the complicated and conflicted neighborhood in which I was raised.

It's one thing for Anat and I to have been in a lifelong, continuous struggle to maintain our sanity – as children, adolescents and adults in this country. It's quite another to have a son fighting at the front.

It's one thing to be a six-year old child planning your escape from a terrorist who has infiltrated the children's home on your kibbutz. It's quite another to think about our son navigating the dark and evil alleys and mazes in Gaza.

We somehow get through the days . . . but the nights. The nightmares cross decades of traumas. They leave us with black circles under our eyes, with a perpetual feeling that it's difficult to breathe and with a terrible fear – a fear of an unexpected knock on the door, of a Red Code siren, of a telephone call notifying us that . . .

We are so impatient to hear the phone ringing with the special ringtone we've set for Omri's calls. So impatient to hear his beloved voice in real time saying "Hi Abba . . . I'm okay" – tired and battered but whole in body and soul. We are so impatient to learn that the traumas of war that have accompanied us have not been imprinted on his flesh.

With all the modern communications networks, isn't there a way for us to see Omri here in our "Nachlaot" garden in our home, lighting the end of the tunnel with a inextinguishable light of hope?

Nir Barkin